A sign is indeed needed now

I've just done with my TOEFL registration.

SIGH.

Had a handful of thoughts recently. Mainly about my studies. Not the current one. Basically I just got to live with what I'm capable of at the moment. Before the classes started in the beginning of the semester, there seemed to be a future ahead. Not those bright ones but at least there is a future. Now, things get a little bit off my hands. A "W" might even appeared in my transcript. But will promise myself to work hard because mid term is coming soon. Timetable for finals is out as well. First day of exam would be 13th April.

Dad has been asking me about my university and when do I want to start. January or August? I don't know yet. Michigan Tech or Oklahoma Norman? I don't know as well. But one thing for sure, I've got to make up my mind before next semester starts. Michigan Tech is a good university for Engineering studies. But I've been thinking, "What if I can't cope with the high expectation of a good university which might make myself have a change of major? But major in what then?"

I don't know. Give me a sign. At least I saw "OU" somewhere unexpectedly. And I do really feel like going to Oklahoma for no reason. LOL. I don't really like cold places such as Michigan.

On schedule

I'm glad that I'm actually following my schedule. 4 things in mind now, without arts coloring exercise which is due on 7th March, 1) Calculus quiz on Monday, still cant get the trigonometry well, did a slightly careless mistake on last quiz! Forgot to put a "+C" at the end of my answer. Should have scored a 10/10. What for if you can do good in quiz but not the test. 2) World Religion Test on Tuesday, narrow down my choices to Amish, Wicca, and Scientology. Gotta get started for my research paper. 3) Physics quiz on Thursday, gotta work real hard. 4) World Religion Assignment, trip to a Hindu temple on Friday and hope to get everything done by then.

It's morning 1.35am! I'm still awake. :)

Hectic

A hectic week ahead. It's killing me slowly. All the works, assignments, and studies! It just took me 1 and a half month to realize that I'm pretty screw up this semester. Kind of late? Mid term is coming soon. In about 1 more month and I don't even know what to study for ARTS and RELIGION! It's driving me crazy. Calculus do until gone nuts. Don't ask me where's my nut case.

Shoot. I still can't believe I'm actually blogging right now. One way to release stress. I think. Mr Eric of REL200 gave us a take home test. Sounds so cool. Something like an open book test or a take home test are usually lots more harder. 10% of the coursework mark. Purpose of doing it? To do a simple research of 5 pages. And pass up a week later. Scientology, Church of Satan, Amish, Wicca, Unitarianism, Hare Krishna and etc. What the heck is all these...

So many things to be done. Have to start from tomorrow onwards because what I'm having next week is just pure torturing. Basically all of ART105 students have to redo our arts tracing and drafts of term paper! Physics quiz and lab reports! Calculus quiz! Religion take home test to pass up! And all I got is just a weekend, which is not enough. No enough. Never enough. None enough. Nope enough. Nah enough!!!

Introducing Mr Bad. I'm actually sitting in the first row. Having Khaivenn sat beside me who always feels so sleepy during class. "You can call me Mr. Bad but I'm not a bad person. Don't worry."

my gone case colour exercise! redo!

my gone case studio exercise! redo!

Theme for this semester is Precisionism/Purism which means, we have to do some glossy/metallic coloring with 3D effect. What I came up with, "Executive Status", combination of expensive cars, watches, perfumes, phones and private jet. Sadly it's too many for the coloring and almost all of us have to redo. I cut down to only 3 objects: my lovely Bugatti car and the watch. Maybe another pocket PC?

LX3

I found this Panasonic LUMIX DMC LX3 which I'm so in love with! No, it's not a DSLR. It's just a digital camera. A cool one! Released last year somewhere around October! The unique and classic design of this camera cathces me and makes my heart melts for it! It's just look so cool isn't it? At least the price is better than a DSLR. And you look at the flash! Classic.

A Valentine's Day

Perhaps, it wasn't the perfect Valentine's Day that I ever had. But it was a special one. Both Plan A and B did not work out. Plan C came out of nowhere and it seemed to be a memorable one. Don't you think it's a bit just-another-date if you go out with him/her for a movie and walk around the mall, then have lunch/dinner together in a very crowded place and the only difference is just that you may have a bunch of roses and gifts on your hand? It makes Valentine's Day just another day isn't it?

A 10 minutes walk under the 1430 sun was not the best option. *thanks to mum who got the car away* We settled down at the nearest mamak as girlfriend requested what would be her choice of having a lunch. Along with her brother. And the Indian songs with the lousy sounds. Took taxi back to her house. And say, "Hi popo! ... "

Waited for her to get shower and played MatchAttax with Lionnel(brother). Won 3-2. Gave her Valentine's gifts. Her favourite no nuts FamousAmos cookies, some FerreroRoche chocolate, and a watch. Even though it might be one of the lowest 3digits watches, but I personally think it'd look great on her. *thanks to boon and kahwei for some very USEFUL opinions* And it did look great on her. *thanks to lionnel for being the bulb/guitarist while we open the gifts together. some nice plucking and Richard Marx's right here waiting for you*

lionnel! nice music! darling looks blur with the smallest rose ever!

shy

legs

Then off we started our movie, in my laptop, in the living room, watching Slumdog Millionaire-which swoops 58 awards in less than a month and stay #34 at Top250 movies of all time, before the dvd got stuck in 10th minutes, before the girlfriend's father came back from golf. "Hi uncle! Happy Valentine's Day! ... "


Switched to Underdog. We laughed. And before the movie ends, what do you say when you see the girlfriend's mother coming back from work? "Hi auntie! Happy Valentine's Day! ... "

Finished movie. What next? Revolutionary Road, another award winning movie. Before we took our dinner-McDelivery- with grandmother, except for parents who went for their anniversary dinner. She said I was a shy boy. I just know that I'm scared, of seeing the grandmother! haha.

Time to go back. Forgot to give her a kiss on the cheek. Damn. Forgot to take pictures together. Damn. Forgot to say the last time of "Darling I love you Happy Valentine's." sigh.

Alot of things are going on in my mind right now. First, it might be not fair or I have no rights to say this. But sometimes I just don't understand why 90% of singles feel sad in 14/02. Jealousy, envy, unsatisfactory? Just check on the status in Facebook! Some people even claim this day to be the Self Awareness Day, abbreviated S.A.D.? Yes I know I'm selfish, or I'm lucky to have a girlfriend. But being single is not that bad afterall, save some penny and maybe your time just hasn't come yet. I prefer to call it as Friendship Day where you get to celebrate with your friends. At least sounds better than Single Day or whatever S.A.D. People like X, I salute her the most. When asked whether she's sad or what, she just doesn't give a damn and said, I'm going to a party for singles!

If you want her, work your way and get her. If you want him, get his number and attention. Advice: 1) Be yourself, the real you, the original one 2) Money is not a problem if it's what you call as love 3) Don't be too desperate and rush if you want him/her to be with you for a long time 4) Search for love just like Finding Nemo

For friends who are offended with what I said, I'm sorry. But I'm just expressing my feelings. Because I do feel moody now. Writing with a moody feeling over some stuff which I think it's best to keep it yourself than expressing it.

It's ending soon in approximately 1.25 hours. So what? It's just another day where some people feel happy, sad, or nothing. Where some people propose to her, get married, argue, divorce or pass away. It's just a day. A Saturday.

Olive You!

Feels like tonight

"And it feels like tonight....."- Chris Daughtry.

What did he feel? I'll tell you what I feel. I feel like shit tonight! These days were the days that will hit you right to the heart and mind that you will never forget. Somehow I wished that someone created a time machine. Somehow I wished that I could turn the time upside down and play with the counter-clockwise setting. Somehow i wished that mathematicians were never born. Somehow I wished that we wouldn't learn all the things now and get straight to what the job requires instead.

Life is never easy. It never is and it never will. No one promises that. When he went out of the exam hall, "Fuck!". Another one said, " 妈的". Then it goes on to , "Shit". Those were still inside the hall laughed and Ms. Jerry said that she won't be having a goodnight sleep tonight because of all the cursing.

Well, was the test really that hard? Not really, if and only if I put more effort on it. Maybe 10% of hard work will do. But everything seems to be a little late isn't it? You can't say the test is hard when many people scored high marks for that. It's either you're lazy, or more lazy. Stupid and withdraw is not in my dictionary. Sorry to say that.

It feels like shit tonight. When you dive like Ronaldo. And you missed crucial penalties for Cup Finals and Champions League Final. It's just a metaphor. Only I myself know what happened. And maybe 1 or 2 of some people like you.

It's getting late now. Well not quite yet. But I don't feel like doing anything. Maybe staring at the ceiling and looking at the fan would be just alright to get you to sleep?

3S

We've got the 3R-Reduce, Reuse, Recycle- and the 3G-I don't know what it means. Now I got myself a new term. 3S which stands for

Study
Sleep
Shit

*bonus- Screw it!

Finally I got the time to relax for a few days not before going for ART105 test on Tuesday. Well, I screwed my Calculus test. As well as my Physics test which I took a moment ago. Can't believe the basic thing came out and I actually missed it! Since I'm so good in screwing, might as well be a screw driver. Or a street hawker which is good in frying. Frying papers.

Valentine is coming! Spend your valentine with your loves one such as mother father brother sister. Friends as well! Buy them roses and give them kisses!

Too much

I've got too much to say,

I've got too much to lose,
I don't even know where to start.
and I don't even know how to start.

Well, Chinese New Year came and past. 1 week of holiday, didn't turn out how it supposed to be. I mean, holiday is equals to study break. Isn't it right? But the point is I don't study that much. And of course, you'll always feel bad or guilty once you don't do THAT well in your test.

I flung my calculus test. At most 70. How sad could it be. When you think you can do. When you think you're prepared. And the reality tells you that you're not. Not fully prepared yet. Which means you've got to work much more harder than you thought you had.

Physics test is coming on next Thursday. I feel like studying but I'm not doing it now. Well, we always thought that we have time for everything. "Later lah.." will always be in my mind, and that's the key of failure. Should I be studying now? Yes. I should.


*Some of the CNY photos are posted in my facebook account.

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=63873&id=689206475&saved#/album.php?aid=63873&id=689206475&ref=mf